Friday, December 7, 2012

Don't let it out of the pod.

What stood out in last nights dream was this huge pod. This pod was not a hard shell like an egg, it was like it could move when ever, what ever was inside it did. I new there was something inside it that I didn't want to bother, there was a slight fear, but more of a, "lets not let it out so we don't have to deal with it" feeling. One of my kids did something to it and next thing I knew, "it" was out of its pod. "It" was a human child, but it acted like an animal, it crouched, it grabbed and didn't speak. I just remember feeling, "oh great, now we have to deal with it".

You know, I'm not that type of person. I don't ignore things or situations so I don't have to deal with it, sometimes I wish I was that type of person. Yet, I know there are situations I am going to have to deal with that I don't want to or I don't know how to, but I am willing to adapt and try.
I have a young adult daughter, that moved back in and is now single. I've done pretty well, I think. I realize she is an adult, smart, and she is responsible, but that doesn't mean I can let go of caring for her well being. I told her, "you know I ask who you are hanging out with, so when you go missing I can tell the authorities who you were with last, I'm not trying to be nosy!" Of course part of me is being nosy, ha ha, I'm human and that natural!
I have a son who is a senior in high school this year. Every college he has applied for is far from home. We are very close and this is going to be very hard for me, but he is ready and this is what he wants. I tear up every time I think about it. Years ago, when my daughter decided she was going to move in with her boyfriend after being home for the first 2 years of college, it didn't affect me the same. Why? This is why, when she was a junior in high school she went to visit her dad one week and decided she wasn't coming back home. She thought the grass would be greener on the other side. If it was greener on the other side, would we have that saying?! She wasn't even the one to tell me, her father had to. It broke my heart, I cried for like a week straight, yet it prepared me and when it was "time" for her to move on, I was ok with it. Does any of this have to do with my dream, I don't know. I am hoping with my 3rd and last child all this is will get easier .... yeah right!

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